can't help but feel lonely
can't help but feel un-included
can't help but stare at the ceiling up above
i can't sleep.
have i slept?
i don't know.
just lying down and staring up.
what seems like silence is deafeningly loud somehow..
it's bursting my eardrums.
ringing noises just filled up my mind and i can't sleep.
tv noises...
squabbling of people...
water splashing... perhaps someone's bathing.
wilfred snoring by my side..
yet i can't sleep and all i could do is lie away..
.........
*ringing noises*
damn. it's 6am already.

nowadays i can't help but feel lonely or unincluded in wilfred's activities and also my own social life seems pretty dull lately.... havent' been doin out with much ppl except the most recent trip out with sano but even he is goin to join national service soon... one less person to hang out with.... haiz.